its summer time and I just moved.
Soim looking for a new job in my new area and I see Toys R Us, Ive already worked there once before as customer service and apply for assitant manager, but dont get it. Instead they offer me customer service again, only in the babies department. boo
so then I think, Ive been working at Metro for a minute now and think to go for supervisor. I ask people around and they think its a good idea. I go to the manager and she says now, some bullshit like theres no openings or some shit like that. That's a lie.
So right now I dont know what to do. Go to TRU for a job i already had, only this time worse and take a step backwards. Stay at metro and wait it out, cuz i know stupid manager is gonna realize that the supervisors she has now are leaving and have me take their place. OR just totally leave Metro, and say FUCK YOU!
any suggestions?
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Jamaica
Recently Ive been seeing the world through racist eyes. Everytime I look at white people they get me mad. Expecially rich white people, Especially old white people, and the men I dont like white old rich men
I look at the world I'm in and think, this is not the only way it can be. I'm looking at it and thinking this 'world' that I live in was created for white people, by white people. Thats why those that are minorities are having a hard time. Because the system was not created for them, it was created to exploit them, and use our abilities for their benefit.
I was taking a shower today and looked at my rag, created by a white person, looked at my shower gel, created by a white person. Everything I look at was probably created by a white person. Proably the only culture influence was the hands that put these items together.
Thats why I want to go to Jamaica for a month. and then maybe after that I want to go to Africa. I just want to experience a world that was created for me. A black person. instead of living in someone elses world.
Ive thought about it and my dad is going this summer, so im going to go with him. adn just stay after he leaves, and meet my family and do all that kind of stuff. It will be kinda like an indentity finding, souls searching mission.
I only have one problem, no one wants to go with me. I mean I'm going down one way or another, alone or with someone. Im just saying it would be more interesting and more fun to go down with a friend. So if your interested in going to jamaica with me this summer. let me know!
Dreaming
last night I had a dream. Its kinda long. I hope you guys dont mind. for the skimmers, I'll put the most important parts in bold
There were 2 brothers. They were yound like maybe 7 and 9 and they were bownm, they were very very close to eachother. One day they went shopping with their mom at the grocery store. They stole a few things but still helped their mom get the food she wanted. They saw some friends there and said waduup to them. On the way home they play around and help their mother unpack the groceries. The mother starts cooking. The boys go in their chill spot and fall asleep. They wake up to smoke. The police come and they start shooting in the other room. The oldest brother runs out and closes the door so they cant shoot there anymore. Everything is calm for a moment. They go outside and their mother is there, everything is calm. The boys go back inside and the police radio says "52, 52! Get out Get Out!" the younger boy fell asleep and the older one woke him up and ran him outside. They go into the mothers room and can't find her, they assume shes outside where she was before. The run down the stairs, unlock the door and leave. They embrace eachotherm for making it out alove! They look for their mother but cant find her. A man walks up the the little brother and starts asking him questions. The little borhter cant undertsand him, because he is talking in their language too fast. SO the older borther stepps in and finished their conversation. The younger brother notices something in the older brothers shirts. The older brother was hiding a police wire in his shirt. the younger brother gets suspicious and questions him. the older brother says it was to get the police to save them. The younger brother accepts it, and they start walking, following the crowds. The older brother at this time, hear the man talking to another man, about him and stops for the compliments. The younger brother does not like this.
They get to a party. the older brother walks infron of the younger, and the younger pushes him out of the way. (this is where the younger brother turns into a girl, more specifically, me. Remember is it a dream). then I see a dude from area and I ask him if hes seen my mom, he says he hasnt seen anything. I turn around and ask this girl if shes seen my mom she starts flirting with me, and I start to get angry. i tell her about the fire and the whole story, while were dancing. This is where I'm conviced that she is a lesbian. she says there was no fire. I get made and kick her, she must have fought back because somehow i ended up on the floor, by this guys feet where he was sitting. he reaches to pick me up.... and then my alarm went off.
yeah, that was basically my dream. Im wondering if it means something and what would have happened if I didnt wake up
There were 2 brothers. They were yound like maybe 7 and 9 and they were bownm, they were very very close to eachother. One day they went shopping with their mom at the grocery store. They stole a few things but still helped their mom get the food she wanted. They saw some friends there and said waduup to them. On the way home they play around and help their mother unpack the groceries. The mother starts cooking. The boys go in their chill spot and fall asleep. They wake up to smoke. The police come and they start shooting in the other room. The oldest brother runs out and closes the door so they cant shoot there anymore. Everything is calm for a moment. They go outside and their mother is there, everything is calm. The boys go back inside and the police radio says "52, 52! Get out Get Out!" the younger boy fell asleep and the older one woke him up and ran him outside. They go into the mothers room and can't find her, they assume shes outside where she was before. The run down the stairs, unlock the door and leave. They embrace eachotherm for making it out alove! They look for their mother but cant find her. A man walks up the the little brother and starts asking him questions. The little borhter cant undertsand him, because he is talking in their language too fast. SO the older borther stepps in and finished their conversation. The younger brother notices something in the older brothers shirts. The older brother was hiding a police wire in his shirt. the younger brother gets suspicious and questions him. the older brother says it was to get the police to save them. The younger brother accepts it, and they start walking, following the crowds. The older brother at this time, hear the man talking to another man, about him and stops for the compliments. The younger brother does not like this.
They get to a party. the older brother walks infron of the younger, and the younger pushes him out of the way. (this is where the younger brother turns into a girl, more specifically, me. Remember is it a dream). then I see a dude from area and I ask him if hes seen my mom, he says he hasnt seen anything. I turn around and ask this girl if shes seen my mom she starts flirting with me, and I start to get angry. i tell her about the fire and the whole story, while were dancing. This is where I'm conviced that she is a lesbian. she says there was no fire. I get made and kick her, she must have fought back because somehow i ended up on the floor, by this guys feet where he was sitting. he reaches to pick me up.... and then my alarm went off.
yeah, that was basically my dream. Im wondering if it means something and what would have happened if I didnt wake up
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