It Started as Just a Normal day...

Today started really boring
Went to work, boss man wasn't there
Walked to Tim Hortons for a Peppermint Tea with 3 Sugars for my flu type sickness thing that I have going on right now
Got chopped by some dude on a bike (bicycle, not motorcycle)
Went back to work, boss man still not there
Thought about you guys
I was thinking "damn I haven't posted in like a day... they must be getting bored"
So I took some random Pictures:

Prenab (dude on the phone) : my coworker. I think he hates the boss man just like me, but wont admit it
lol I'm the biggest creeper


Where I work





Then I went to Kennedy Station, saw my cousin who likes to go by Domiiniique. and we bought some food.
Jerk Chicken, Grace Pop, Fruitopia, and those DIME OVALTINE COOKIES!
Anyways....moving on,
The point is, She was my company while I got my nose piercing!
ooh and I told her the chicken wasn't going anywhere. But I guess she didn't believe me

What you guys didn't see is that when I asked the lady how much it was gonna cost me she said 24.99 plus tax. I was like Damn. Then she said because I bought the pack and there were two rings in the pack, so... I got my cartilage done too!

Sorry no after pics, Conrad died and when I got home they all looked ugly

ps. if you didn't know, Conrad is the berry. And the berry is my phone

Ladies Enjoy

Souljaboy: not really feeling his songs too much, but I Love his personality. Hes so real... exactly what Mr. Chambers said. "Everything I would do hes doing, but with money"

[Straight Males do not Click here, Ladies don't forget to pick up your jaw]

Laugh Out Loud

During my daily blog hopping I ran into this,
Y'all Need to see it too!

Thank you Brandon!

Ooh and I cant forget this... don't trip out

Every time, Cudi reminds me of a Quite City boy that I know

Ill be back by 10... sorry

Today after work I went home... I literally looked in the mirror and decided that this is a good outfit and cannot be wasted on work. So I Called Vanessa

Ah the reasons why I love Vanessa:

1. Shes down for anything.. Ill say lets go to a lesbian strip club n get lap dances, n she'll be down
2. We share the same feelings about the same people. Hate the same, love the same
3. We are both Strange, but Great... what can I say

Went to Kelsey's and we had Coronas, Lobster and Crab linguine, warm brownie and cold ice cream, and sat on the patio n just chilled and talked about life, like we always do. I love good company!I'm debuting the natural hair

Get to know her at The Same as it Never was

Then on the bus ride home some accident happened.

Apparently there was some guy choking a taximan and the taximan was driving all over the road... and I was sleeping (or trying to) but woke up to shouting and then the bus stopped by the taxi man and the guy was still in there choking him and the bus scared him away.

So I had to stay and take a statement and blah blah blah... alot of waiting.

I felt bad for the taximan though. He was an old black man that is just trying to support his wife and kids (that I am gonna assume he has)

This is the Ambulance, and the taxi.. I don't know if you can see that well though
this guy is the hero: he ran to the Taximan and was the one that scared the attacker away
taximan in the grey shirt, and the EMS and Firefighters are putting a oxygen mask on him

Sorry the Pics are bad.. I was creepin soo hard just to take them.

It took me 2 hours to get home

Tip for the ladies:
When Walking home alone in the wee hours of the morning or evening walk on the road.
I don't know about you but where I live there are a lot of trees and bushes and shit on the sidewalk. And anyone could be hiding in there just waiting for you to pass by so they could pounce on you
so Choose the Road,
Its lit, and easy to walk on, and if anyone if trying to pounce on you it gives you more time to see them and to react and RUN!

And a girl running in the middle of the street in the pitch of night is never something good... so hopefully a car will stop and save you!

Life is (Un)Fair

I don't know if many of you have noticed already. Those of you that see me often and are around when bad things happen in my life. But I consciously try to keep a smile on. I try to look at the good things and just understand why this happened to me.

I am the biggest believer in Everything Happens for a reason and there are no such things as coincidences. And that there is too much good in this world to be focusing on the bad

For example take a look at the time I am posting this and my last post. Usually I wouldn't becoming in this early but something happened that lead me to my house at this time. I am kind of upset, but at the same time I know, it probably wasn't meant to be, me being there. (Although It would have been very nice!)

I am trying to justify the reasons for me being at my house right now and all I can come up with is the selfishness of another. But I am just going to believe that there was a reason that I don't know or understand that justified his actions. And thats enough for me to live with

If you know me. most likely you haven't known me for very long. I don't have a group of friends that I have grown up with me or those from elementary times. Probably because I made the decision to go to far schools which ultimately made it hard to keep the friendships i had. But on the other side. The friendships I do have now, I try to make the most out of them.

I believe in spending time with someone. And not so much in a group setting, because then its you interacting with a group and not trying to get to know the person individually. How they act when they are alone, is who they really are. With no pressure from others. That is the person in all my friends that I want to see. Who you really are.

I believe I also try to do this because I really want that kind of friendship where I have known a person all my life, but since I dont have that I want a strong friendship. I just want people in my life who are down for anything and Believe in me and Trust in me the way I would believe and trust in them too.

Now don't get me wrong. I am NOT a loner. I have friends, but sometimes when I want to do things they are not available or whatnot. Whether they live to far, or doing this or that.

As Simple Plan Said:
"I think I got a lot of friends, but I don't hear from them"

I guess thats why I am so willing to go out to do things with people when they invite me. Because I want to build a friendship with someone. but it upsets me that with guys they want more then a friendship. I just want to be that girl that you like to spend time with. That girl that you invite out downtown just to have a hotdog with and talk about life. I'll gladly be that girl.

But back to everything happening for a reason.
I dont know if i believe in God so much as the rest of my family does, but I do believe in the universe and balance. I believe that everyone deserves good unless they have done bad. And there is too many little good things that go unnoticed in this world.

For example I always try to comment on other blog posts because I know the feeling I get when I see I have a comment.
Or understanding/believing in peoples decisions, because I would want people to do the same to me
Or spreading the bed, accepting an invitation, being welcoming, smiling, hugging, pouring a drink, giving a massage.. I don't know a lot of little things

And I guess people just don't understand how the power all the little things together can make a person feel and that's why they don't return the favor can be discerning. But I don't stop because all I want to do is make my company happy, and hope they appreciate it.

That's why I say there is too much good to focus on the bad. Because even though I may have turned 20 and received only a gift card and a bracelet, I sometimes work extra hard just to find company to go out with, fell my opinion is unheard. I smile, because why should I be sad?

There is too much that life has to offer for me to dwell on the negatives. That's why I say, you only live one life, so make it worth it. Everyone knows you have to take the good with the bad. Its how you react to it that matters.

I know that sometime Ill find myself walking home in the rain without a umbrella and some unknown time in the night all scared and shit. I know that Ill make it to my house, to my bed, where I'll go to sleep and wake up to a new day.

ps. to all my friends that have noticed the small things, Im glad I made you smile!

Sometimes this Happens

I like to think of myself as having a lot of friends, and going out with them often. They invite me out and I am always down for anything. The only things that would stop me is my availability, and my cash flow.

But then days like these come around. Where I want to go somewhere and all my friends seem to disappear. Either working or doing something else. So this is my Invitation to you. I know it might me a little short notice but it lasts all night! This is where I'm gonna be this evening, and I would be oh so happy if you decided you wanted to join me!

Free Food, Free Cover, Good Music, Cool Vibes, you cant go wrong!

change is constant

im changing the layout up again... I know

sorry guys but I feel like I need more space

ARRGGH i cant remember what the colours were before i changed it, so i could replicate it... boo

OK I think I'm done... I hope Ya'll like it!!

i Love My Cudi

its that new shit

Downloads:

Kid Cudi - Call me Moon Man

N.O.R.E. ft. Kid Cudi - Floating in the Sky

Last Night

the most beautiful moments are captured on the most ordinary days

Last night I had a dream and it was really trippy. But you have remember that I am a person that believes in the afterlife and unfinished business and spirits and all that stuff. So if you are not then just move on to the next post

Last night I had a dream I was in some nice vacation spot with basically all my mothers side of the family and I went into the back of the villa we were staying in and there was a little party going on. They were playing Michael Jackson songs and watching the memorial but it was a happy party. I wanted to sit so I looked for a bench and Michael was sitting there.

He shared his cake with me and was really nice, smiling to everyone and being very modest, enjoying his party.
Then I was like" Michael I don't understand, how are you here beside me and yet were watching your memorial?"
He said" just know that I am right here right now. thats all that matters" (or something along those lines)
I said"okay" and he got 2 pots of sheppards pie... he didnt share and it looked really good

Then after I was about to leave to go to work (why I put work over Michael Jackson I will never know but whatever) and I tapped him on the shoulder and said "Thank you, for everything really!"
And he held my hand and said something like" Dont worry about it, It was nothing. I enjoyed it"

Then I started to cry, cuz he was soo nice and cool, even though I was only sitting beside him for maybe 5 minutes. I was on the subway crying then I remember getting out and having to walk through like 50 doors still crying.

Then my dream led me into the middle of a car chase, where I was almost killed by these suped up cars trying to escape the cops cuz they robbed Scarborough Town Centre

But I just though I would share... maybe it was the long as walk from Morningside and Ellesmere to my house at 2.30 am that made me have that dream

I never knew him personally at all, but today I feel like I actually said goodbye to him

SMILE!

everyone MUST watch

Off My CHEAST!... thats right I spelt Chest wrong!

OK... as I mentioned before My boss just recently started paying me minimum wage, And Ive been working here since middle of May.

Ive just been taking his shit because I needed a job and this was the only one that I somewhat wanted to do. But since 2 weeks ago when I asked for minimum wage hes been a super jerk to me!

For example: He doesn't teach me to do anything. Like literally nothing. I was just hired and told to work and I figured out everything for myself. And he is trying to turn the store to something more retail appealing, so me taking initiative cleaned the store and constantly clean beccause the dumb guy just picks it up and leaves it on whatever the closest surface. Leaving the place a mess. I understand he wants a retail store so I clean it

He tells me basically that I am useless, because I cant sell computers... FIRST OF ALL, you never hired me to sell computers and second how am I supposed to sell ANYTHING when you don't give me any information about anything.

And all the work I do. no recognition at all!!

Yesterday I cleaned the basement of all the boxes, now its clean and you can actually walk past it to go to the washroom. It really was becoming a safety hazard. NOTHING!

Every time we get something into the store. I'm the one that actually takes it out of the box and puts it somewhere where the people can see. NOTHING!

Again yesterday We had a shipment of like 30 laptops, and they were blocking the entrance of the store. So I asked him if he wanted me to move some of them downstairs and get them out of the way, he said no. So I didn't. Later on in the day. most of them were sold and there were 14 boxes left. (1 box for each laptop) So I took them out of the boxes and put them all in 1 box.
Remember there were 14 boxes! 14!
I broke all 14 down and put them in 2 boxes.
ooh and I'm doing all this right in front of his desk, there is no way he could not see me doing this
when I got to my LAST box, he tells me to stop. and then to pack them all back like they were and bring them downstairs

PACK THEM UP! BRING THEM DOWNSTAIRS! WTF!
no, he had those options, he knew exactly what I was doing, I asked if he wanted them downstairs
FUCK THAT!
(and I know the only reason he did that was for me to have more work. Because we never keep laptops downstairs. EVER! he did that so I would be the one who would have to go down and get them. Ass.)

BUT I did bring one of the 2 boxes downstairs to make us both happy.

Now today we had a customer who had to buy those laptops and who was the one to get it.
and I had to get a box and pack it.
WE NEVER PACK INDIVIDUAL PRODUCTS!
that's why I took them out of their individual boxes. and even big shipments we put like 5 in 1 box. Ass.

Embarrassing me in front of customers.
Plus the shit I had to deal with when I first started... telling me he wanted me and all this bull shit. I wish I was lying. Trying to hug me up n shit.

That is why when people ask how was work I respond with... Its slowly sucking the life out of me

I just needed to get that off my chest.

im excited

NAS & DAMIAN "JR GONG" MARLEY DISTANT RELATIVES preview from nabil elderkin on Vimeo.

Lack of Posts?!

to all those reading... sorry I haven't posted. I just dont have anything to say really

1. My Boss if finally giving my minimum wage... I know, I know
2. Apparently I am dating... like actually going on dates with different people
3. Got my ears pierced (i should really bless you guys with a picture) and now I want one in my cartilage and in my nose... but I'm too cheap
4. Found the Perfect car, now all i need is the money to pay for it
5. I am trying to figure out how to put music up, Chambers is helping me bit by bit though (dont worry it will be really soft reading music
   

That's all for now Folks

Ooh! for some reason I got an email about some fashion show where I wear jeans and a bikini... I think I might go, My boss is slowly trying to fire me.

I love you but WTF!!

Your my girl, I love your fearlessness... but sometimes you should have fear

I have decided yesterday that I am going to pay attention to my spelling and grammer, so bare with me... thanks!

I Got Haters!

Check out my haters!

I dont know why, it kinda makes me happy, that more people are reading then i thought there were.

But on the other hand, I hate cuz I'm Jealous.
Happy?

Don't Forget to Hate


have a laugh!

politically incorrect (inspred by carlos mensia)

America always has to be politically incorrect 100% of the time. Let’s use Michael Vick as an example. So the man trained dogs, allowed them to fight against each other, and then killed them by electrocuting them. Thousands of Americans look at him as a monster. HELLO!!!!! You idiots, is this not the same thing you do to the animals you eat. Do you think they just go commit suicide and we eat them? No! Did you know that we actually electrocute our animals? So it’s ok to do these things to the animals we eat but not the animals that are actually smart. Think about is, we eat dumb animals. You know why chicken is the only bird we eat, because it can’t fly and is easy to catch duh! and no one upsets me like those damn vegans, you claim you can’t eat life, HELLO idiot you think plans don’t breath, in the words of Carlos mensia, you vegans eat the solution while we meat eaters eat the problem, think about it, animals produce methane, which adds to global warming, green life helps cool it down but guess who’s out there eating our green life to help reduce global warming, those damn vegans.

My Weekend Part 2

July 16: the walk to my house before the drive to saugaJuly 16/17 - At the house party, we poured some alcohol out for Kay and Michael Jackson, but we wanted every drop to come out so we buried it upside down in the Garden and for some reason put the cap on the bottom
July 17: My birthday cake!
Chambers mixing the juice
July 18: decided to get my ears pierced, on the walk back home we saw a car for sale, and investigated


on Chambers street, we met the child from hell.
From left to right: Chamebrs, Matt, Debbie Poon, new friend Janelle


LMAO, moments after this picture, child devil took Debbies Coach bag and swung it around... Debbie, as a reaction pick up the kid and threw him on the street. When he begged just to get his bike she threw his bike at him too!

Moral of the Story: Little Debbie Don't Play!

July 19: ended up eating at Richtree
the Richtree water fountain

My birthday weekend was LIVE!

Shout outs to: Chambers for being my bed buddy, and for the sweater (that I just happen to be wearing now) Aidan, Chief ,Debbie, Janelle, Matt , Lance, Tasha, Mom and even the devil Child! It was all you guys that made my 20th birthday so special!...and to my berry, who without I wouldnt be able to share. I think he needs a name

My Weekend

turns out I took alot of videos (I hope you guys actually watch them!)

This was after I was getting home from work and DJ takin me out to the park, n then took a walk in the forest n chilled on a bench.
(not sure if audio or video quality is that good... again berry can only do so much)

We were talking shit!! and talking about the party we were leaving from!

Favourite Quote by Chambers: "I was playing with a piece of wire, Cuz Ya'll niggaz stole the drumsitcks!"

After we slept woke bought Appleton and small cake n juiced in Mcdonalds - from this time I was drunk all day!

In the evening we picked up Aidan and his friend (i would have remembered his name probably if I was sober. Somthing that starts with G maybe.) Went to Tashas hosue party downtown juiced some more.

This whole weekend I was a drunked Fiieeen... ask Chambers I was always with him! So don't mind me in this next vid

I faked a bathroom break cuz I wasn't feeling dancing with this next guy, cuz he was holding me just a little too tight

No more videos I swear... but thanks for watching!

Track of the Day

Good Morning everyone,
Today I wanted to start the day with Maury and a very awaited video:

Cool Things Today

a pic from The Hangover concert with Asher n Cudi... I felt it was so nice I had to share!

The PEN Story from PENStory on Vimeo.

The Pen Story

The Chirs Brown Apologies

pet peeves

1)Im in a rush and the person in front of me is walking slow like move man
2)holes, uhg i just hate holes, they disgust me
3)dirt in my nails, like what are you doing there i dont like you
4)i dont feel like saying hi to the person but they say hi to me so now i have to put on this big fake smile and pretend i didnt see them and say hi.
5)DO NOT TOUCH ME!!!! i hate when people youch me, i dont care if its crowded and you cant help it i dont want you touching me
6)one word answers, like seriously thats all you have? one word answers? go take a personality class
7)how people come and go out your life, like honestly if your not here to stay dont even talk to me
8)fat people who are mad at skinny peopl, like stop hating, go pick up a salad
9)listening to others, like can you just shut up and listen to me
10)stop telling me im not black, like its pretty clear i am so get over it

if only

If loved ones never perished, how great would that be? If I could spend that day with anyone in the world I wouldn’t spend it with no one but the ruler of the heart. My late grand-mother. From the day I was born till the day she took her last breath, my grandmother did nothing but shower her love onto me. Living with my grand- mother in Canada was a total bliss. It was always nice to wake up to the aroma of pancakes and eggs cooking in the kitchen. When I was old enough to attend school I moved back to America. Even though I was forced to live in America, my heart was always in Canada. I was only allowed to see my grand-mother during summers because that was the only time school was let out. My grandma always shed tears of happiness when summer began, and then when the summer was over, shed tears of sadness. As the years went by my grand-mother got older and weaker; it only tore my heart into pieces to see how she was slowly going. My grandmother was no longer that fierce lady that raised me. Instead she was just a humble old lady who barely spoke and just kept to herself. Tears always accompanied me when I use to visit my grand-mother and she didn’t even recognize me. My siblings would laugh and jeer at the fact, but this just made me hurt.
When my mama died so did my love for God (though in time I did forgave him). I became so angry with him I blocked him out my life. I felt like if people are just going to die, then what’s the use of getting to know them. My mama was my everything. I even blamed myself for her death; blamed myself for not spending more time with her. If I could have her back the cloud that shadows my heart would surely clear away. She and I would do the things we use to do when she was fierce and had fire in her eyes. We would sit outside on the porch, break a coconut, and drink the milk inside. We would go out and water the flowers to keep us company all summer long. We would take a walk around the block just to stretch our legs and stop at the convenient store for something to drink.
If I was granted this request, to spend the day with my grand-mother for one day, I would ask her to give me some words of wisdom. My grand-mother and I would just talk about all the problems I’m facing today, and it would just be in her nature to have an answer to everything. Then before our time was up, I would ask her to teach me one more reading from the book of psalms. Then we would chant it together until our day was over.

In the News Today

I knew today was gonna be a special day:
Check Chief in the Kanada Kourier.... thats an official news paper, so its a big deal!

See the whole article here

Happy Birthday to Me!

First of, I LOVE my life!
So yesterday the 16th was Chiefs birthday and I firgured since hes coming to Sauga that I might as well come too n we can celebrate together. I arrived at around 8.30 but I didnt see him till mnutes to 12. I was chillin with Mr. Chambers during that time.

But the point is that I went to a Party and I only knew the 5 people in the car with me n chief. And it was pretty chill, but i was kinda lonley n then I gave Aidan a call and next thing I knew there he was. We got our drank n then It got LIIVVEE! People were stealing bare shit though

Lesson in Life #1: If you plan on having a house party, DONT! (at least not at your house) you will get robbed

Then I was having tooo much and I started thinking:
I Love my Life
I Love my Family
I Love my Friends
I Love my Environment
I just Love Everything right now

But honestly they are the people that have moulded me to be what I am today, and I love what I am today. And they are there for me and always down! I mean maybe there are other things in this would that other would ask for, but family and friends... thats all you really need.

SO THANK YOU for making me what I am today, I am the product of my Environment.. lol

ps. more pictures and videos to come, you guys dont worry about that!
pps. the pics so bad. cuz the berry can only do so much... If i had my pro camera this wouldnt be a problem (wink wink, nudge nudge)

After the Party

getting home from the party and the afer party, chilling at chambers, with chambers, lance and matt... we wee GOoOnnne

(lol i am right now)

Cudi in GQ

I just wanted you guys to know that Cudi and Wale are in the August edition of GQ

(I wanted to upload the pictures, however its not my computer and i guess becuase of that it doesnt want to cooperate with me and upload the pictures. So your just gonna have to go without till I get back to scarborough)

PreBirthday Party!

the point is that I did nothing at work (as usual)
Im getting let off early
Getting kidnapped by a friend for approx. 2 hours I hope
Cuz then I have to find my way to union station
Hope on a go bus that will bring me to Meadowvale Mississauga
(Thats right im leaving today n not tomorrow)
Party with my Birthday Buddy
Drunk n High!

Might as well, Im not a Teenager n e more
Almost brings tears to my eyes

All I have to do now it wait for these 15 minutes to pass, so my day can begin!

Kinda Like a Big Deal

Middle of July Birthdays!

Joanna July 15th
(sorry i missed the dinner... don't worry ill make it up to you later, maybe)

Chief July 16th

Me July17th!

Track of the Day

Vistos bosses Ft. SouljaBoy - Delirious


This is so cute. Reminds me of the colours from Solange and the image of Tiffany Evans (remember promise ring with Ciara?)

...and I hope Im not the only one that thinks SouljaBoy is soo effn cuutteee. Man!

Mariah Carey - Obsessed


tell him Mariah!

...and for all the Cudders out there, Heart of a Lion


remember who brought it to you first... Thank me Later

Spare Time

ask me what im doing at work

"What are you doing Amanda?"

Im sitting infront of the computer, several windows open, pretending to be adding emails but really checking facebook, checking various blogs and looking for another job

"oh, ok"

My Motto

Do what feels good

Thoughts of the Day

1. Everywhere I go I see people with large ass Bounty toilet paper. Like 4 of them huge packages... apparently theres an awsome same at Shoppers
2. Tights are not Pants. PERIOD! Tights should be worn with long tees or such... Otherwise dont
3. I swear Black on Black Honda Civs are following me... taunting me like "I know you want me... but you cant have me" What a Bitch
4. This guy on the bus was reading every word in the Globe and Mail Newspaper
5. After work my hands were ashy as FFFUUKCCC! I was trying to hide is so no one would make fun of me
6. I feel super cool when I wear my new shades
7. Booked my G test. July 27, all I need now is a car
8. I have a date tomorrow. Dinner. Dinners are dangrous, its only the two of us sitting looking at each other, doing nothing. I rather an activity date
9. Some guy is getting too close to my heart. I am NOT liking it!
10. HustleGRL is a bitch. How dare you only be 17 and have day 26, Drake and TreySongz at ur birthday party, that happens to be at CIRCA... what a bitch. go here . Just be a normal 17 y.o. and sit on ur bed and do nothing like the rest of us!
    
11. My hair is doing something nice
12. brother n sister are pretty gay
13. This Dutty motorcycle riding bitch gave me the biggest look before she drove away crossing me... Like, how dare you just flaunt everything I want in life like that!
    
14. Future added me on FB!
15. mosquitoes are biting the hell out of me!

Don't forget to hate
it keeps you human!

Track of the Day

One of the Leaked songs from HeartBreak Drake #2... Im feelin it.

This Sucks

"Dude, why?!"

today Im going to my grandmas house!

ps. is it strange that I broke up with him yet I still sleep with the teddy bear he gave me? I just hate sleeping alone