if i could type right now, i would talk about my past weekend and how it was soo shit, and life in geral. new desires in 2010. Im Unstoppable!

soooo happy i went to college, no regrets at all, i loveeee college so much i wanna do it agian, i met some awesooome ass people that jus blew my mind, i want to give a shout out to the wonderful beautiful Selam Kick Ass thats letterally her whole name nooo lie, she is soooooooooooooooo kewl i wanna be jus like her, i am soooooo happy i met Rahma she is just toooo cute when she stresses out, ahhhh omg i love her, and Deborah, uhgg i fuz with her sooo hard. Abdulla The gay Arabian dude we gatta build more memories your sooo awesome, uhhgg the list goes on but those are the only ppl that really really count, gosh i miss u guys already, no hard feelings, we'll be baq in motion in mo time till then BLAZE, SMILE AND SAY CHHESE, AND WILD OUT its bout to be a new year, signing off nowbullet bullet raaaaaah raahhhhh.!!!

While High

I should be studying but I feel like I should share this with everyone.

This afternoon, before going to work I blazed with my roommate. And whenever I blaze and find myself alone I ALWAYS thing about life... Thats how I know I should be a psychologist, cuz I do that shit in my spare time

To topic I was thinking about was the differences between guys and girls. I was talking to roomie about something that was going on in my life and he gave me the guys perspective on it. And I thought guy and girls really are different. Really though, 2 different planets. Not only in thinking though, In our body type, thought processes, interests, socialization... basically everything really

And thats why jury councells and juding panels and other groups of people that need to make important and significant decisions are always encourages to have an equal amount of males to females. To get the differing perspectives! This is because we alreay recognize that males and females are different and want the presence of perspectives represented in the decision to be made. Essentially, we are NOT the same

And I thought, with our differences so blatently accepted in the society how can ANYONE really expect us to be treated fairly?

Especially when our differennces are so often presented in our faces? Talking about equality in the work force and other areas of life. It is contradictory of society to work towards the equal treatment of women to men, yet still emphasis the differences of thought they carry.

Is it just me or are they trying to put us all in the same group, when we belong in different.

I know... its a conundrum. But then I think maybe it was this obvious differences between maels and females that people recognized and reacted to during the strongly patriarical times. I think, during this time, people were aware of the differences males and females had to simply chose which one they preferred. I'm sure there are other factors that influences the culture of these times, but I believe that this was a subconscious decison (or maybe im just talking the most shit right now)

Anyways... they knew there were differences, they didnt try to hid them, and put them under the carpet. Instead they addressed them full on and encouraged a sexism era.

But then I thought, perhaps it wasnt the rocognition of the differences that encouraged sexism, but sexism that encouraged the differences. From there I just went in circles in my mind... creating theories, providing evidence, then contradicting them and doing it all over again.

But I hope you guys follow what I was trying to say... hope it made sense!

no longer strange but great

lately i was thinking about totally exing this blog

I was thinking somethings along the line of...

if you guys really wanted to know me, then you would pick up your phone and give me a call.
It is much too easy to just see someone through the computer
For some reason people find it easier to talk to others over twitter/facebook/email and shit
Its the same reason Im thinking about taking away my wall

BUT you if want to know whats going on in my life then you know what to do

then I talked to Shem, and she told me not to ex the blog

Instead its gonna go through a few changes on my side... no more life stories.
From now, just things I feel are important enough to tell you guys.

Far from home but kept close to my heart

I have finally met the destination on which ive been traveling for a while, I am not too far from home but the distance kills me, i miss my friends so much but am willing to make new ones, and i promise myself never to forget the people that made me because how could i ever know where i'm going unless i know where i'm comming from. so salutations to new friends, new experiences, joy and laughter.

...BRB Grinding

yooo school is so hard right now. I fkkn live at the lirbrary. I literally have no break till december 21 (the last day of my exams)

till then you wont see me. I'm on my grind

WHY I FKKN LOVE MY SISTER!

1 Love T.O. was holding a contest for tickets to the Kid Cudi show in 3 weeks. I put in my little two cents of why I need to go to the concert but check what this bitch said:

i gotta give this a shot..

i was reading what other people wrote but i decided to stop cuz i gotta write this from my heart.

not only am i a huge fan of kid cudi the artist, but also of scot mescudi the man.

he’s real, he’s original, he’s raw and he’s pure talent. his music speaks to me on a level no other artist has reached. each word touches my heart, each beat makes my head nod. his life and career is inspiration to me to live my life to the fullest and reach every dream my kush powered mind conjures up, no matter how extreme and unlikely they might be. he really makes me think i can do anything, because he did it. and he’s just a regular guy. i feel like man on the moon is literally the soundtrack to my life. its like he somehow recorded my whole life and put all 18 years into an album.

“Ive got some issues that nobody can see, and all of these emotions are pouring out of me.”
somehow, even though he is a 24 year old dude from Cleveland and im an 18 year old girl from scarborough.. he understands.

everyone knows that when your a teenager you go through things, its a difficult time meant for learning and growing. but many artists forget what its like because their caught up with how they’re currently living. they’ve forgotten how they got to that point. they didnt always have the money, cars, clothes and hoes. and he knows that, i love that he isnt caught up. he’s still just scot mescudi to me. and he will always be, no matter where the fame takes him. and thats why i want to see him in person. i have to witness the creative genius that is kid cudi live, i want to see the way he moves when he’s on stage, i want to hear his voice live, i want to see how different songs make him feel. and i want to see him now, when he’s still new and fresh. before he starts playing big arenas and i’ll only be able to see him from the very last row… im no rockefeller.

basically, his shit’s more refreshing than the nestea plunge,

i wont be able to accept it if he’s in toronto, playing a small intimate show, and im not there. i just cant. i feel like its my duty to him to go, to show him that he has real fans up here. real fans that dont like him because he’s cute or has swag. real fans that know the words to more that just day n nite, and they actually understand what that song is about. real fans that didn’t just hop on the bandwagon after they heard him on 808’s and heartbreak. real fans that care about the content of his music, real fans that listen to the words, and real fans that will find a way to be at that show. i am a real fan, and i hope that 1LOVE TO will be my way.

-dee

Thanks Sister!

Nov. 28 2009

Ya'll need to hear this right now:

Im seeing this guy in toronto meet me ther the 28th at Kool haus...

This is why dude is the greatest, hes fkkn MAKING TRACKS in a FREESTYLE!!

Scary Pizza Man

LOL so I came back from this wack party... but its okay cuz it was right down the street but then I came home and something strange happened

As soon as we walked into the door and got comfortable we hard a banging on the door. We started looking for weapons. I got the knife, and Roomie answered the man through the window

It was a pizza man saying we bought pizza, we were like Nooo, we just came in. Then he said your numbers not 210 2653, n were like Nooo. Then we reverse looked up that number to find an address cuz he told us to and there were no results.

the point is that the man was about to leave when I thought 'hmm, I am kinda hungry... and the pizza is already here.' so then we bought the pizza that someone pranked calle d to our house. Invited the Dj over and smoked, ate, watched a movie (I had to clean a little cuz I have someone coming to the house early in the morning), then slept.

thats me after 1 slice of pizza, while we were waiting for the Dj.

i dont know if i have mentioned this to you yet. but I am trying to be a skater girl... and im ALMOST there!!

I believe from the middle of the summer I been talking aout wanting to be a skater girl, the walk, and talk thetalk, and even knowing how to skateboard. So today I was talking to my boy and he said that I have the fashion of the skateboarder (thats the walk), I believe I have the attitude of the skater girl (walk again), so right now I just have to LEARN TO SKATEBOARD!! I'ts so hard, or maybe its just really hard for me to learn new sports and its harder just for me to learn it , digressing.. But even though its hard I think im doing really good. after only maybe a week of learning this, Ive gotten through alot, I see my progress!!

I think im so happy at this because i was talking to my dad during thanksgiving and he waslk talking about living your dreams. and how they could be happening right now, even under our noses. So at the time i didn't appreciate it and just walked it of.. but then somehow it always lingered in the back of my mind and actually though tabout it and right now I'm really living my skateboarder dream... and that makes me happy.. lol (weird, I know, sad)

my point is that I bought a skateboard:



...please excuse how it looks, im in a different state of mind right now. Ill corrent when I remember again

yeaaaaaa i just wanted to put this out there, i just found out where exactly in India im from, Calcutta whooo!!!!!

wheres my cutee?

I went to a party yesterday It was LIIVVEE as fuck... but now I have a problem

I got the Sweeeeeeeetest bubble.. One of those bubbles that makes you wish there was something more, one of the ones that you wake up thinking about... a fkkn good ass bubble. And i'm already sexuallly deprived right now.. can be having me wake up thinking about that sweet bubble wishing there was more.

Horney + Sexually Deprived = Males beware I might pounce.

I'm just saying, if you get too close... I have no control over what happens.

Then I went home and saw this:

Untitled from Victor Del Toro on Vimeo.

I'm no lesbian, but this shit is more then Hot.

Ps. if your wondering why you didn't get a bubble. I have 3 criteria of bubble giving:

1. you have to be cool in my books to get a bubble. Not cool = no bubble
2. Most likely if your my Ting, or if I think that you believe that this bubble will lead to something more, its not gonna happen. I just give a bubble for the bubble and nothing more.
3. If I respect you, look up to you, or I find you as a role model for me... your not getting a bubble. I would just find it to be awkward.
   

That's the stitch, now you know

grandpa wedding

mother and grandfather

3 generations

me n mom

grandmother

the family that you have never met before and you never knew about

ugh I know Im super late, but I tried before and it wasn't working so I took it as a sign.
But here they are now... enojoy

New Edition to Playboy

As we Know the hard working mother of three and wife of Homer Simpson, Is now the icon for Playboy's new launch. Play boy will even issue a three page center fold of marge nude. not only that but they will also incluse an exclusive interveiw with the mom........WHAT THE HELL??????

pictures tomorrow

peace

Im Home

alright so take it in.. I'm back in Toronto

I needed this, come back to the roots, be myself again. Ottawa had me stressed.
So now im here and I feel like the Amanda in Ottawa is shitty compared to the Amanda in Toronto. I missed myself.

but it feels kinda weird, like I'm a guest in my own house, whatever better then shitty shitty Ottawa

But yeah Rogers did me soo wrong.. so right now I don't have a Text plan and apparently its 15cents to receive and send a text, So I wont be doing either right now. have Something to tell me either call (and keep it short cuz I only got 200 minutes) or send a text, Im able to read approximately 6 words without opening it.

...get at me

this is my shit

btw promise next time Imma keep it 100 with everything going on

sorry no pics

life is hard man and its starting to get to me... you ever feel like there is tension all around you and your try to ignore it but there is only so much you can do and the only thing that will relieve you is to stay out of that environment? well thats where I'm at right now.

But there is a boy... hes pretty cool. Like the only thing I look forward to in Ottawa and hes not even here. That, and the next time I'll be leaving Ottawa.

Ottawa just sucks, thats all.

im here

AAAHhhhh god sorry for not posting but damn school is getting to me hardcore. Its a matter of feeling like im always behind and then being off campus and not knowing when my next meal is coming and what its going to be... and then there are other things too. Not ready to share quite yet sorry.

But I am alive and well, if you were wondering. I have alot of shit to do though
Friday going to New Jersey - Grand dad renewing vows (hopefully ill have poictures)
The Next weekend is Thanksgiving - going home
The Next weekend may or may not be going to Montreal... gotta see what the economy is saying in my pocket

Got a job... pretty shitty though, But its just the job before a get a better one

Wish me luck with life, feel like im slipping away....

this video is just to cute, couldnt help but post it

busboy and poets

sooooo crazy night, i get up on stage to perform my peice, i say the N word, the crowd grows angry causing me not to win. Can you believe they thought i wasnt black, like what the hell how rude, anyway, my friend one the contest and we all still managed to have a really good night!!

Frosh 09

This is the reason why there has been a lack of posts lately: Frosh 09 - Team of the SKUNKS

It started with a house party to design our shirts and pre-drink

Thatès right, I stole and ate a banana. I also took a fruit cup (I was kinda hungry)

Then on to the boat cruise!






Yeah, it was pretty LIVE!

...Then it was moving day. boo




hmm, this was probably the peprally (Its kinda a blur)



Then canal Games





Hypnotist

Walk to the beach

Beach... can't blame him, we were tired as hell!



Our frosh doing our totally awesome cheer that they created!

LOL we failed at a jumping picture



Olivers for food
Then we were getting ready for the dance
Next day we went to the movies. We saw A Sneak Preview of White Out.
Ps. Its a movie you watch on bootleg or not at all
Oh yeah, I got our frosh to buy us some popcorn!

Then after was the sleepover and I was determined to sleep, I don't care what anyone had to say. That's Aidan me and Sammy
While others stayed up paying truth or Dare Jenga
I guess that's it guys